Simp things ew

8 March 2022

I feel like writing here, but at the same time I don't feel like writing. There is only one or two things I would like to talk about, so maybe this will be short.

In the previous blog, I talked about a dude whom I hadn't seen in five years randomly turning up in one of my courses. We'll call him Y. Well, I definitely think he is quite good looking. I made an effort to hang out with him more regularly, especially yesterday. Yesterday was really nice.

We made plans to take the bus home together, but we ended up being together for much longer, staying in the library and doing our courses. He's adorable. Maybe he's not the best in the looks department objectively (I find him cute thooooo ;-;), but I think his personality more than makes up for it. He's quiet, like me, but he's quite enthusiastic whenever he is talking about something that really gets him going, be it something he likes or some drama he used to be a part of. I just loved being with him. His presence is nice.

He also told me about all the relationships he used to be a part of. I didn't ask him if he had his first kiss. I probably should have. I wondered what it would be like if we were in a relationship. It's still far to early to know, but it would be nice to hear his opinion.

In addition, he told me that he is quite honest about his crushes, and that he will be honest if he likes someone. He hasn't said anything about me. Guess whiteys don't like brownies.

Anyway, the main thing I wanted to talk about is when we were on the bus home, and it was his stop. I debated if I should ask him for a hug or not. I thought "fuck it", went ahead and asked. He said "sure". I wrapped my arms around him. He was holding his bag so he couldn't hug me, but it was nice. The people behind us must have thought we were dating, lol.

Afterwards, he messaged me on Discord saying that it was a good day. I said yeah. I felt a little guilty about the hug, so I said "sry about the hug if you didn't want it". He said that it was okay, and that he was cool with hugs. I don't know if I should take that as an indicator to hug him more often or what. Because he did say he enjoyed cuddling his girlfriends. I wanna be his girlfriend.

Enough weird simping. I'm going to be meeting up with someone I met on Discord, soon. Weird - you don't often meet NZers in the wild. He happens to live not far away from me too. I've known him for about a year, and I'm pretty sure he's not going to murder me lol. But yeah, that's going to be a thing.

Thanks for reading the cringiest blog post here. I hope you have a much less cringy day.