Addictions and hatred

26 February 2022

I hate to write another blog post 2 days after my previous one but I'm really bored. I have an internet addiction. All I do is scroll through my social media on my phone and surf the web on my laptop. Always looking for that serotonin rush and dopamine hit. I was in denial about this for a long time but now I admit it. I have a dependency on technology. I don't know what I would do without my smartphone, without my laptop. I need an intervention. I need something else to work towards in order to get me off my phone. Maybe university will finally be the thing that breaks my addiction.

I have a list of things to buy to prep for university. I need to buy some gym clothes because I am planning to go straight into the gym on Monday. Hopefully my mum will take me out shopping tomorrow. I need to buy a notebook, just in case I can't write notes on my laptop for whatever reason. I need to buy batteries for my stylus and my mouse. I need to buy some personal items too.

I'm excited, but nervous. There are like tons of assignments that we need to complete. Some courses even have an assignment every fucking week. What the hell. I mean, great for keeping me occupied, but that's still a lot of work.

I don't really understand how people keep telling me that university is fun despite the large amount of work. I can't imagine having time to do anything else other than study. Alongside gymming, I am planning to take a martial arts class and I don't know how I'm going to be able to squeeze in study and rest. Should I forgo the martial arts class for this year? I don't know. I'm already in a club for Engineering and Computer Science so maybe that's enough. Who knows, who cares. I'll decide during the club expo that's happening this coming week.

I started an Odysee account because I'm sick and tired of YouTube's shitty fucking copyright laws and blatant disregard for creators. I thought about using BitChute or Rumble, but I think Odysee is best for my intentions at the moment. BitChute is something I would use if I want to look for content I can't see on a news site because it's too "not safe for life". There was this footballer who got suspended for abusing an animal in his home, and I couldn't find it on any mainstream news sites. So I looked at BitChute and it wasn't even that gory. Just him lightly kicking a dog and throwing it on couches. Not the best way to treat a dog, but you know, I've seen much much worse. Actual gore isn't allowed on BitChute, but if it's newsworthy, I think it's allowed.

Odysee also has a cryptocurrency feature, which I like. LBC is even worth more than BAT, which is pretty cool. Maybe I can start earning some money. Although whether or not that will have an impact on my student allowance remains to be seen.

Discord is changing its terms of service, privacy policy and community guidelines. The major things that concern me is that they're cracking down on "misinformation", added more groups that are covered under their "hate speech" rules, and "off-platform" rules too. Basically, if you say that the vaccines don't work (not even a fucking lie), you'll be banned. If I call a trans woman ugly (which let's face it, most of them are), I'll be banned. And if I participate in the Canadian Trucker's Freedom Convoy, my account will be terminated. So much fun. Discord is making a move towards being a mainstream social media platform by implementing the totalitarian rules every other platform currently enforces. Should have seen this coming, but whatever.

I do want to distance myself from Discord. But the problem is that all my friends are on there (and other socials such as Instagram). It's where I get my social interaction from. So I don't really know what to do. I guess the only way to deal with it is to reduce my presence on the platform. Stop using all of the bots. Leave all the servers I don't interact in (which is a lot). And remove the friends I haven't talked with in ages. I think that's a good start.

Speaking of trans women (and be warned that I am exercising my free speech here), I truly think they are the most entitled, annoying, and bitchiest minorities ever. There are some that are taking the same cybersecurity course as me, and boy are they annoying. I am in a Discord server for my degree, and you can spot the transwoman from a mile away. She/her pronouns, picrew profile pics with a trans flag background, can't shut up about how they are trans. Apparently there are like two or three taking my cybersecurity course. God, imagine the smell. I saw one of these trans women in a zoom call and he looked abhorrent. Nothing of him looked even remotely feminine. He did grow out his hair but it looked greasy as fuck. His voice is most obviously male. I don't think he has showered in a few days. Half of me thinks he just has some sort of weird fetish and isn't actually a woman. Nah, I refuse to call him a woman. I hope I don't call him a "he" in front of him. But wouldn't that be funny.

Unfortunately, university and academia are LGBTQ+ havens. You cannot criticize them. If I say that LGBTQ+ has become a trend, that people are only gay because it's "cool" and "fashionable", I could probably be suspended. A different university I visited had LGBTQ+ propaganda posters everywhere, along with other leftist bullshit. I saw a few similar posters at my current university when I visited. I don't know why so many people here are left leaning. I can't tell if 90% of people here have that political alignment, or if they're just so fucking loud and annoying that it SEEMS like there's more of them. I don't know why they think that accepting the word of the tranny as gospel is the best way to advocate for the alphabet soup community. For fuck's sake, most of them aren't even genuinely LGBTQ+, they're some sort of mentally ill genderspecial who needs psychiatry from a Russian man who doesn't take any of their bullshit.

I used to dismiss non-binarys and other what-have-yous as going through a phase, and that they'll cringe when they look back on themselves three years later. I don't think that's going to be the case anymore. The amount of enabling on social media ensures that they'll be non-binary forever and will get oppression points. It's so easy to build your own echo chamber thanks to social media algorithms. It ensures you'll never see an opposing opinion again. Love that for you! Degrade your critical thinking skills to the point where you'll accept anything being fed to you as fact!

Chris-chan sigh... Well, that's all folks. Hope you enjoyed my rambling for today. If you feel offended, please feel free to send me an email telling me I should 41% myself. Oh wait, I can't, I actually identify as the gender assigned to me at birth!